July 14 Monday blues

The movie "Hancock" although has similarities to a normal super hero one was a little more different. The super woman makes you wonder what if there were ones like that. It was nice to have been with the other guys but it made me feel more lonely than ever. The absence of girl friends in my life seemed more hightened at these moments. I am too feminine to be a part of the guys gang. Lack of sleep as I went for the movie before work really made me feel tired.I was looking forward to writing things to you but I was unable to find some time to do that.
"Albany Training" at work today was fun. It was after some time that most of the Team Leaders came together to share some time and learning. I did not work on my project today - reminded me of something the Big K said on Friday " Your Project shoul be a part of your life so there is no way you could not have invested time or energy to do better at it. "
I have decided on getting to the work place only on time. If I reach early I shall take a deep breath enjoy a moment outside rather than invest my energy to setting things right.
Waiting patiently to go home though. Although its too brief a time and I hunger for more its better than nothing at all.
This should have been the day for my first yoga class unfortunately it did not work out. I am glad I can vent out my inner most thoughts in here as it seem to relieve me of some pain from within.
I have started contemplating a change in job scenes as this work seems mundane. Also to be focussed is my health standards. The realisation that there will be noone else to take care of me if something happens has become ingrained into my blood.

My Life as of now

I am 27 years old wishing I was 20.This is not becus I think I would look any younger at that time( may be) but just that I would like to know if my life today would be any different. Through my school years I lost one close to my heart which changed me as a person. I have played games with my life seldom sure why. As I think of it now I believe it might have been a passing teen phase. But some experiences have taught me a lot more than others. Some which are closer to heart and some which I later realised had impacted me. I work in a company now where I seem to put my heart and soul into and have been in the same for the last 5 years ( long time ). I am contemplating today what my future should be. I am unsure of my reason for so much annonymity while I talk about myself, past experiences have left its undesired affect.
How does one write about 27 years of ones life ? I wonder if anyone would want to mention or state more. I have seeen some who love to talk about themselves and some who seem totally contend not to. As times go by my life would reveal itself in this blog.

Ashley Begins

Today July 14th 2008, Ashley is born so that I have a journal for my life. I knew about the existance of blog for quite some time but never had the time or the inclination to venture into this life. I believe a person who has a blog has a life different from others. A section of space dedicated to voice out your feelings and thoughts is awesome. In this world and era where there is no time for anyone to listen or understand your perceptions or thoughts this is true happiness.