A lot has hapened over the last 2 weeks. I have barely had time to inform you all. I decided its been late enough so as soon as Angel left today I logged in and wanted to talk to you about it.
I am not sure what all I have forgotten to tell you about. The first is last weekend thats between Sept 11th to Sept 15th I was with my parents and my beautiful sis. We had a lovely time and one I wont forget for a long long time. We went to Kanyakumari the view was awesome and we had loads of fun. We did see the sunset but was not able to see it as we could have seen the sunrise...rising from the ashes or so it felt. It was wonderful being there and seeing the places.Even better was the things that you could buy with Rs5 and Rs 10 wish I had bought more things. At the time I felt I was spending too much so I did not venture more once I got here I felt bad for not spending more... and buying more things as the rate can be never compared to anything here.
The next best thing that happened was this weekend thats between Sept 18th to Sept 20th Angel had a Management Fest and he won .. He was so excited and I was proud of him and his achievements. I felt awesome about the whole thing. He was able to acheieve both work and college laurels at the same time. I was so excited and I also feel that I should do better things with myself.Although I seem unsure what I can do for that though.
I do want to study for my CAT classes so I will need to learn and put it a lot more work than I have ever done. But I have become so lazy that I do not think I shall be doing a good job of it.
I have to atleast start driving classes so that it will be one step close to one thing that I have to acheive and be good at before its too late.
Thats what I have to do today : Learn to drive .
Sunday, September 21, 2008
Wednesday, September 3, 2008
Loneliness
A state of the mind is Loneliness..
Its in ones mind to divert.
Yet a lot of us succumb to its invasion.
Self preservation's are deprived.
Excitement and happiness seem to be in the past.
How does one drive it away?
Selfishness sometimes help but not lasting.
Setting a goal
Driving yourself towards it is the future.
Self Motivation is the future.
U my secret love i hope will help me....
For the future...
To a life of ever lasting cheer.
Its in ones mind to divert.
Yet a lot of us succumb to its invasion.
Self preservation's are deprived.
Excitement and happiness seem to be in the past.
How does one drive it away?
Selfishness sometimes help but not lasting.
Setting a goal
Driving yourself towards it is the future.
Self Motivation is the future.
U my secret love i hope will help me....
For the future...
To a life of ever lasting cheer.
Sept 03 08
Life seem to move on for most people. I am unsure as to why I am stagnant and it looks like unless I wake up soon its going to remain the same which is really disastrous.
My manager leaves in another week the confirmed news just dropped in today. My feeling about is mixed. Although I do not have as much interactions as I had with him previously he was a stress buster for me and truthful about my feelings and telling me exactly what I thought. His absence is definitely going to feel even more alone at work.
Angel along with his work and studies is definitely going to have even lesser time than before. I also seem unable to find new people to chat or talk to. The thought of checking out new driving class makes me even more nervous. But its a necessity. Something I learned is that privacy and independence for oneself is very important.
Other activities I need to work towards. I did find Fossette but I wish I had company while checking out this place. Atleast someone reliable,trustworty and someone to fall back on.
Shortage of food for the last 2 days at home and at work. I should not compromise on food. I have decided today. I have to go to SBI and deposit the money as well. I have also decided to talk to Arun about Mutual Fund subdivisions after all he was the one who has helped me the most as of now.
I wonder why its so difficult to find women to go around with.As my search for women as friends continues...till the next time.
My manager leaves in another week the confirmed news just dropped in today. My feeling about is mixed. Although I do not have as much interactions as I had with him previously he was a stress buster for me and truthful about my feelings and telling me exactly what I thought. His absence is definitely going to feel even more alone at work.
Angel along with his work and studies is definitely going to have even lesser time than before. I also seem unable to find new people to chat or talk to. The thought of checking out new driving class makes me even more nervous. But its a necessity. Something I learned is that privacy and independence for oneself is very important.
Other activities I need to work towards. I did find Fossette but I wish I had company while checking out this place. Atleast someone reliable,trustworty and someone to fall back on.
Shortage of food for the last 2 days at home and at work. I should not compromise on food. I have decided today. I have to go to SBI and deposit the money as well. I have also decided to talk to Arun about Mutual Fund subdivisions after all he was the one who has helped me the most as of now.
I wonder why its so difficult to find women to go around with.As my search for women as friends continues...till the next time.
Tuesday, September 2, 2008
Sept 1 2008
It was a festival today and since Angel was at home I decided to make something for him to eat :) That did work out. I seem to be losing my temper very fast these days. I also do not seem to have any purpose in my life. As to my future I do not seem to know what I want anymore either.
I seem to be looking for something .. searching vainly to find it but seem unsure what I am searching for.
Angel was so mad at me today I do not know if there are any words that can describe how he screamed at me and through the phone. I am unable to be understand the reason for such a scene. Either way I guess I will have to also come up with something for my future which will make everyone happy as well.
Uncertainity seems to be looming over my head. Other than my wanting for a baby I do not seem to know what I want. I would like to be able to have a goal which will also make it better for me.
" I cannot keep motivating you all the time "
I seem to be looking for something .. searching vainly to find it but seem unsure what I am searching for.
Angel was so mad at me today I do not know if there are any words that can describe how he screamed at me and through the phone. I am unable to be understand the reason for such a scene. Either way I guess I will have to also come up with something for my future which will make everyone happy as well.
Uncertainity seems to be looming over my head. Other than my wanting for a baby I do not seem to know what I want. I would like to be able to have a goal which will also make it better for me.
" I cannot keep motivating you all the time "
Aug 30th 2008
Well the party was a difference.. Everyone was amazed to see the way I looked. I love the way that fabric feels. it makes me feel so sexy .. anyway it was a party where I thought I will be bored and might not be able to enjoy anything but it turned out to be such a difference. it felt awesome. The girls instant outing was the best ;) I always wanted to be a part of something special like that..
Well it was a dream come true.. and felt even better as time went by. I know it might not happen for a long time now but that one time itself was out of the box experience : )
I got to know something new about myself as well. I love company but I dont seem to make them on my own. I wonder why.
Well it was a dream come true.. and felt even better as time went by. I know it might not happen for a long time now but that one time itself was out of the box experience : )
I got to know something new about myself as well. I love company but I dont seem to make them on my own. I wonder why.
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