Kiss and questions!

How much does a kiss really mean to you?
How does it feel to be kissed?
How does it feel to want to kiss someone?
How different are kisses from different people?
Does love mean anything when you kiss.?
Is it necessary to be in love when you kiss?
Does a kiss mean that you are in love?
Is it sex when you kiss? Do u want sex after you kiss?
Does a kiss mean that you are entwined to each other for ever!

The Admirer

Sometimes in life u meet someone new who seem to be so much a part of every moment of your life.. its difficult to believe it. After all, I do have a life of my own so its surprising how another can force their lives into mine. I have never trusted anyone to be this close to my life.I have been there twice now yesterday being another day. Can a kiss mean so much, can another person who sits and spends so much time with u mean so much.. all these are questions that I do not have any answers for. There was a time when I used to write a lot even poems but now I don't seem to be able to write it. Although the mood is well set for a poem or two. I was beginning to wonder how different life would have been if it had been with someone else. Its so difficult to understand life and its desires for each one of us. Within a period of 2 months how close can one get. Dec-07-09 was the first day when things became beautiful and life started having a different angle in itself. I do not know if its right or wrong any those two words are also based on perceptions. I do not want to forget these days which is why I am penning them at least to you. Now there are 2 people in my life. Although time spend with one of them seems to be diminishing as there does not seem anything much to talk about. The other in the mean time takes me out for a walk early every day and does seem to have somethig to tell me every day.I do not want to think more than to just enjoy him on each day....

Each one to oneself.. Life and its paradoxes.

The continung search for happiness

Sometimes life seems like a continuing search for love happiness and enjoyment. Sometimes u see some giving up all their hopes and aspirations to be with someone they love. In other instances u see people who just give up on their love. Life has its complications in each one's life.

Expectations, Wants, Ego ,Needs, Requirements, Desires... too many adjectives but my friend one of my oldest who is married and has a 14 year old baby was telling me today of how he was thinking of being separated from his wife.

I spoke about how life is too short and how relationships require constant nurturing... Anyway each one to ones own life but to be away is so easy to keep it going is the most difficult...

It does not make it easy when Men are from Mars and Women from Venus.

Nov 09 - A trip to Gods own Land

I have always wondered how its possible that there is so much beauty in this world! I used to go by without looking at it. Busy as I am with my life.God has created such scenic wonders around us! In this life, we do not enjoy the most beautiful moments which might have lasted a life time.

We need to spend our time looking at things which are beautiful.
We need to spare a few minutes and watch life around us evolving.
We need to share some our moments with some one we treasure.
We need to love the ones we love and show them your love forever.

Dec 05th 2009

It's been months since I have written to you... A lot of things have happened. The foremost of which is the laptop was in Kerala and I did not have the option to use it. I decided to be striaght forward atleast to you. There are so many things in my heart... that I want to share with you. One of the foremost of which is my life and what is happening in it.The loneliness which was worse for the first months of this year has subdued like anything.I decided to quit from my job which was killing me from within.

Some thing happened in the mean time though. Two people came into my life at work which changed the way I feel at office and how I react. Suddenly there was something to look forward to. I am not really sure how this has impacted everything. Life feels so different now at work.

There is so much in life that looks exciting and keeps me going now as compared to before.... No matter what others in my life feels about it..

I have to go now. have some work.. will come back and tell you more.

Jan 15th 09

Today during preflash they did say that I was moving to DECHO. Tom said oh no! It was nice to hear him say that though... atleast someone missed me ..!! Did inform him that I was moving but transitioning will be done properly and without fail.
Training still goes on. There does not seem much to look forward to. There seems a lot of things are changing and updates on a regular basis which is the only sad part but otherwise everything else is fine.
Personally I dont get to see Angel at all and thats really hurting me a lot. I think the physical ache has subsided as compared to before and I dont think thats a good news. I think I am able to manage but thats not what we are talking about. This weekend anyway we have a trip to mangalore.
Parents wedding anniversary : nothing great happened.. !! Mom said may be a saree for her but she is not sure about that either as she herself is not keeping well.
Nothing else for today. Tomorrow though there is a meeting. It will be a start so we have to see where that takes us.

Jan 13th 2009

2nd day in Training. I am learning a few things here. I am not really sure what I am doing in here and how to proceed further from here. Anyway hoping everything will be great. My ex team gave me a watch and it was looking really good. I had no words to describe what I felt when I saw it. I was unsure how to even react but was really happy to receive it as I did not have a good watch which worked.

There does not seem any concrete which is happening on the floor as of now. But if things are in a mess gives me an opportunity to append and change those things. Lot of techni guys in the batch so thats really nice. Told them a little bit about me hopefully they know what they are looking at as well.

Jan 12th 2009

Today I have moved from Microsoft which I was working with for the last 5 years to a new one called DECHO. It does look interesting and a lot of challenges in this front. But well it is still a change. The first launch was today and it was great to be a part of the pilot batch.. It was definitely out of the blue.. too many challenges that one has to face for the future.

It felt odd when I heard that my team has bought something small for me .. I could not believe it I had thought that they had hated me a lot. I guess you never really know how things are set up for the future.

I went for the interview with Perot systems on Jan 11th and came back by evening. I thought I got through as they said they will send the offer letter by mail but I have not received anything of that kind yet. The offer is evidently better than what I am making today so thats good and its also a pilot batch so thats even better ;)