Kiss and questions!

How much does a kiss really mean to you?
How does it feel to be kissed?
How does it feel to want to kiss someone?
How different are kisses from different people?
Does love mean anything when you kiss.?
Is it necessary to be in love when you kiss?
Does a kiss mean that you are in love?
Is it sex when you kiss? Do u want sex after you kiss?
Does a kiss mean that you are entwined to each other for ever!

The Admirer

Sometimes in life u meet someone new who seem to be so much a part of every moment of your life.. its difficult to believe it. After all, I do have a life of my own so its surprising how another can force their lives into mine. I have never trusted anyone to be this close to my life.I have been there twice now yesterday being another day. Can a kiss mean so much, can another person who sits and spends so much time with u mean so much.. all these are questions that I do not have any answers for. There was a time when I used to write a lot even poems but now I don't seem to be able to write it. Although the mood is well set for a poem or two. I was beginning to wonder how different life would have been if it had been with someone else. Its so difficult to understand life and its desires for each one of us. Within a period of 2 months how close can one get. Dec-07-09 was the first day when things became beautiful and life started having a different angle in itself. I do not know if its right or wrong any those two words are also based on perceptions. I do not want to forget these days which is why I am penning them at least to you. Now there are 2 people in my life. Although time spend with one of them seems to be diminishing as there does not seem anything much to talk about. The other in the mean time takes me out for a walk early every day and does seem to have somethig to tell me every day.I do not want to think more than to just enjoy him on each day....

Each one to oneself.. Life and its paradoxes.

The continung search for happiness

Sometimes life seems like a continuing search for love happiness and enjoyment. Sometimes u see some giving up all their hopes and aspirations to be with someone they love. In other instances u see people who just give up on their love. Life has its complications in each one's life.

Expectations, Wants, Ego ,Needs, Requirements, Desires... too many adjectives but my friend one of my oldest who is married and has a 14 year old baby was telling me today of how he was thinking of being separated from his wife.

I spoke about how life is too short and how relationships require constant nurturing... Anyway each one to ones own life but to be away is so easy to keep it going is the most difficult...

It does not make it easy when Men are from Mars and Women from Venus.

Nov 09 - A trip to Gods own Land

I have always wondered how its possible that there is so much beauty in this world! I used to go by without looking at it. Busy as I am with my life.God has created such scenic wonders around us! In this life, we do not enjoy the most beautiful moments which might have lasted a life time.

We need to spend our time looking at things which are beautiful.
We need to spare a few minutes and watch life around us evolving.
We need to share some our moments with some one we treasure.
We need to love the ones we love and show them your love forever.

Dec 05th 2009

It's been months since I have written to you... A lot of things have happened. The foremost of which is the laptop was in Kerala and I did not have the option to use it. I decided to be striaght forward atleast to you. There are so many things in my heart... that I want to share with you. One of the foremost of which is my life and what is happening in it.The loneliness which was worse for the first months of this year has subdued like anything.I decided to quit from my job which was killing me from within.

Some thing happened in the mean time though. Two people came into my life at work which changed the way I feel at office and how I react. Suddenly there was something to look forward to. I am not really sure how this has impacted everything. Life feels so different now at work.

There is so much in life that looks exciting and keeps me going now as compared to before.... No matter what others in my life feels about it..

I have to go now. have some work.. will come back and tell you more.